I’m addicted to cookies, and to a lesser degree, cake. If there are cookies in the house, I eat them. And I don’t mean one or two. That would be fine. We’re talking a dozen or two. And with two young children in the house who are constantly asking for them, I often cave in and buy or make cookies. For the kids, of course! As a result, I’m carrying around close to 100 extra pounds of cookies and cake on my body.
It wasn’t so bad at first. Size 12 I could live with. But you just keep getting bigger and bigger. 14, 16… until several years pass and now I am up to size 22 pants and 2XL shirts. I am fat.
I look in the mirror and what I see makes me feel ashamed. My face is fat; my stomach is fat; my butt is fat. It’s hard to feel good about yourself when you want to cry every time you look in the mirror.
I have let myself go in other ways. I look bad no matter what, so why bother with makeup? Why curl my hair? What’s the point?
My back hurts, and I have bad feet. These are problems that are least partially weight-related. I worry about my blood sugar. Will I get diabetes? What other health problems will I experience due to my lack of self-control?
There comes a point when you just have to say, “Enough is enough!” I can’t live like this anymore. I don’t want to live like this anymore.
That’s why I signed up for the Made to Crave online Bible study through Proverbs 31 Ministries. I want to explore any emotional or spiritual issues that may contribute to my overconsumption of cookies. And cake. And Pringles Sour Cream and Onion potato chips (I think they put something in those to make them impossible to resist, but that’s an issue for another post!).
What about you? Are you addicted to food? What is your weakness? Most importantly, are you ready to do the hard work you need to do to kick your food addiction once and for all? If so, head on over to Proverbs 31 Ministries and sign up for the Made to Crave online Bible study. I’ll look forward to seeing you there!
P.S. I am also going to start walking, running, or biking every day. What actions are you taking to combat your addiction to food and get healthier in 2014? Please share in the comments!